Former phobia and anxiety sufferer Kate Gow recounts an event that was pivotal in her recovery – and indicative of how far she’d progressed in her battle with self-confidence.
As a bee keepers daughter, it was about time I went to visit my dad’s bees. It’s taken 30 years, but having gone through The Thrive Programme I felt confident enough to give it a go and approached the day with excitement rather than trepidation. I used to be a ‘runner flapper’ – that is, at the slightest sound or sight of a bee or wasp I ran away screaming and frantically flapping around my ears as my dad would roll his eyes in disbelief at me.
It was the end of the summer, the bees had already collected their nectar and were now guarding the hives with their lives. The plan was to move several hives from one site to another. I was suitably suited and booted in the pink bee suit Dad had bought years ago in the hope I’d take him up on it one day. I realised that I was pretty well protected inside the suit and felt relaxed.
At the first site the bees were pretty quiet only a few flying around at a time as my dad blocked their entrances with foam in order to move them. I could hear a meditative hum from the hives as they buzzed inside and every so often what sounded like mini racing cars would whizz past my ears by those who had got out. Still, I remained calm.
When we moved to the new site I recognised it straight away. This is where dad would bring me when I was younger on the odd occasion when no one else was around to look after me. Sitting in his truck with all the windows up in blistering summer heat watching dad work on the bees from afar, worried he’d bring them into the truck when he returned.
This time I felt surprisingly relaxed and viewed it as a privilege to observe their world and view them for the miraculous insects they are. Each hive with its own temperament. Some quiet, some much busier and others a little more protective of their honey! There were more bees flying now as dad took out the foam and opened up the hives.
They all flew out to observe their surroundings at times landing on my arms and hands and buzzing around my head. But I edged closer, fascinated by the little creatures as Dad worked with them. I felt like a different person. I had left my younger self in the truck and made a conscious decision to approach this experience as an adult.
Before The Thrive Programme there was no way I would have done this, let alone stay so calm. One of the biggest changes in me from doing the programme was being able to put myself in situations without and control. I no longer feel like I have to prepare myself for the worst case scenario and I know that, whatever the outcome, I can cope with it.
This new found confidence has opened so many doors and experiences for me. Visiting the bees with my dad was a very special father daughter moment and one that I don’t think my dad ever expected would happen with me. I’m so glad it did.
Katie is now a licensed Thrive Consultant and helps others overcome their issues using The Thrive Programme. If any of the issues she talks about sound familiar, get in touch with your local Thrive Consultant for a free chat today. It could be the most important phone call you ever make.